Seven Years

I have so many drafts of this post written that I feel it will take a year for me to edit it into a format in which I am both satisfied and comfortable.

I started this site as a safe space to share the messy parts of life. And I wouldn’t be authentic in this mission if I disregarded this universal pull to share this very messy chapter of my life.

This year, October 15 marked seven years since the day of my wedding. This year I took back the power of this date and as such officially changed it’s significance in my life. As a result, this has also been the Universe’s unwavering signal that it is time. It’s time to move into the next chapter that this life has in store for me. And Universe, I see you. I hear you. I feel you. And I openly accept this invitation. In fact I can’t wait. I feel like I’ve been waiting for this invitation for years now, but I also recognize that it has not been until now that I have been ready. Friends, my body is buzzing just thinking about this next step. And I can’t wait to share this next chapter with you.

I know the Universe will guide me toward the next piece of myself in which I should reveal.  All I need to do is wait, listen, and follow it’s direction. For now, this is all that I am able to convey effectively.

Seven years ago I walked down the aisle of my church and had a vision for what my life would look like. Today I am unrecognizable from that woman, and on October 15th of this year I graduated from yoga teacher training.

I’ve been envisioning myself, in my lace wedding gown, in a room alone, before my father saw me, before taking those steps toward my future husband. I’ve been asking myself if I would change anything about those quiet moments, and what I would tell that young woman anxiously waiting to start her new life.

As cliche as it sounds, I could never tell that bride to do anything but take those steps, knowing that yes, you will be betrayed by the person at the end of that aisle. You will feel pain, loss, emptiness. You will find yourself alone, with no money, surrounded by strangers in an unfamiliar city and state.


And slowly (very slowly) that city will become your new home. And one day, alone in your empty apartment, your new friend will come over with her boyfriend and they will give you an old television and microwave because these are luxuries and you can’t afford to purchase either of these items on your own. And then one weekend your parents will visit and you’ll be embarrassed because you don’t own any kitchen chairs or a couch but they will take you to Home Depot and your dad will buy you tools and he will fix your kitchen table. And your mom will cry the entire way back to Michigan but you won’t be privy to that information until months later.


And then, beautiful girl, then one day you’ll walk into your first yoga class. And all of the pain will come back- years and years of pain. But this time it’s different. This time instead of running from it, you lean into it. All of it. And an entirely new world will unfold before you. And you will never be the same.

If I could speak to that bride today I would tell her that she’s in for one hell of a chapter. That the world will fight to make her heart hard and that she will go into battle, but she’ll be fighting for softness and vulnerability. Fighting for hope and grace. And what she’ll find is that hope and grace have been seeking her the whole time, and for all of her days, they will never leave her.

 

The light in me honors the light in you.

 

Manifesting Part 2: Setting Intentions

In Part 1 of the manifesting series, we examined the power of thought. Now we’ll be looking at how to channel the power of thought to manifest the life we desire.

As we discussed in the previous post, the Universe directly reflects the energy that is put into it. In Part 2 we’ll examine how channeling the power of our thoughts can manifest our intentions.

Our thoughts and our entire existence are made up of vibrations of energy. Everything we see, hear, touch, taste- they’re all made of vibrations. Our thoughts are also included in this vibrational energy, and as such we are constantly putting out vibrations into the Universe.   When negative vibrations/energy are sent into the Universe, these energies are directly reflected back to us and are perceived as our reality. Likewise, when we vibrate positive energies, that will become our reality as well.

Perhaps you’ve used a phrase referencing a person’s “good vibes”, or you’ve walked into a room and instantly gotten a negative “gut feeling” towards someone… those are based on the literal vibrations of yourself and the other party. When we sense these things we are sensing another person’s energies. Cool, right?!

It’s important to understand the power of our thoughts, intentions, and vibrations because this will greatly impact our ability to manifest an intention. It is common to be sending out negative vibrations without realizing it, and then become frustrated when intentions do not manifest. In fact, our brain naturally focuses on negative experiences and thoughts as a protective mechanism. Because of this, changing our thought patterns requires practicing and changing the way in which our brain naturally focuses. A great way to implement a change in vibration is to incorporate a gratitude practice into a daily routine. This is an excellent way to set the tone for the day,  by beginning each day reminding yourself or one thing in which you are grateful, then continuing to build on this practice. Soon you will be able to recognize when you have found yourself in a negative thought pattern and will be able to change that internal dialogue.

Since it’s in our nature to focus on the negative as opposed to the positive, when we’re setting intentions it’s easy for us to focus on what we want to discontinue or remove from our lives, instead of focusing on what we want to bring into our lives. These differences, however, are massive and can make all of the difference in having a manifestation come to fruition.

When choosing an intention to manifest, begin by acknowledging what the manifestation goal is- for example “complete self-acceptance”. If this is the manifestation we’re striving for, instead of vibrating an intention of “I don’t want to judge myself anymore”, or “I want to stop self-loathing behaviors”, an intention to manifest would sound something like “I love myself completely. I am worthy of love and I attract unconditional love. I know that I am enough.”

Can you see the difference between these two intentions? One is vibrating negatively, and that intention will manifest as continuing to receive the same self-defeating vibrations, whereas sending out positive vibrations provides space for this intention to manifest!

Intentions can be set daily, hourly, yearly, etc. There are no limitations to our ability to manifest once we learn how to set them in accordance with the Universe!

 

The light in me honors the light in you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Manifesting Part 1: The Power of Thought

There’s so much to say when it comes to manifestation that I’m making this a 3 part series about the power of manifestation. To begin discussing manifestation, we must begin with the power of thought. Our thoughts directly impact the world around us and what we experience each day.

I like to think of manifestation in this way: the Universe is neutral in nature and as such, it responds directly to the energy that is put into it. If the energy being put into the Universe is one of defeat, anger and jealousy,  those thoughts (energy) will shape what the Universe returns to us. However if the energy being put into the Universe is gratitude, love and generosity, those thoughts (energy) will be returned to us.

All day, every day we are sending energy into the Universe. For most of us, these are limiting beliefs we have playing on a continuous loop in our head, and these limiting beliefs have probably been playing for most of our lives. We call these “truths” but my friend, they are rotten lies.

The work of the late Dr. Marasu Emoto illustrates the immense power we hold within ourselves. Dr. Emoto’s experiments showed the power of thought energy by studying the way in which water crystals would form based upon words spoken to water, music that was played to water, and even how the crystals formed based upon images that the water was placed over. For example, when the phrase “You make me sick, I will kill you” was spoken to the water, the crystals formed were incomplete, with no structure to them whatsoever. Conversely, when the phrase “Thank you” was spoken to the water, the beauty of the crystals that were created upon the water becoming frozen brings tears to my eyes. You can view photos of some of these crystals on Dr. Emoto’s website here.

I also conducted my own at-home experiment to further illustrate the power of thought. Over the course of one week I conducted an experiment with an apple, my words, and my energy. Each day for one minute at a time I held half of an apple. To the half on the left side of the plate, I spoke into it positive affirmations and sent into it positive energy, speaking into it phrases such as “I am so thankful that we share this moment together”, “you are so beautiful”, and “thank you for existing to nourish my body”.  To the right half of the apple, for one minute a day, I berated the apple and spoke into it words of hate such as, “You disgust me”, “I can’t even look at you, you’re so rotten”, and “I want you to die”.

Below are photos of the apple. The results are pretty astounding.

 

Both halves of the same apple, sharing the same plate, receiving the same amount of sunlight. The only difference between the halves is the energy that was spoken into each one.

You see, with each negative word we tell ourselves, with each comment about how we need to lose weight, with each comparison to another person, we slowly rot ourselves from the inside out, just like the apple half on the right. Whereas when we spread love, light, and gratitude to our incredible bodies for simply existing, and share our light with those around us, we literally have the power to change the world.

 

What are some “truths” that you play on repeat in your mind? Some of these “truths” may have been placed upon you as a child, such as “She’s a feisty one”, or “He’s a troublemaker”. It’s not a coincidence that once we take ownership of these false beliefs that were pushed upon us as children, they manifest as our reality.

Some limiting beliefs that play in my head throughout any given day may include “I wish I had what she has”, “Why can’t I just look like her?”, “My life is such a mess”, “I failed again”, “I can’t do that”…. the list is endless.

Take a moment to examine some of the limiting beliefs that play in your mind. This is a very uncomfortable exercise, I acknowledge. However, we cannot begin to change these beliefs until we acknowledge that they exist and also acknowledge that they are cruel, vicious lies. That is where we find our power. That is where our strength resides.

For this opening post about manifestation, I challenge you to reflect upon the limiting beliefs you tell yourself daily. Sit with this and notice how it makes you feel. Find comfort in the uncomfortable parts of yourself. This journey is not always pretty but it is so worth it. You are so worth it.

 

The light in me honors the light in you.